Frustrated

Well I had my blood work and U/S this morning posted the u/s results below.

When the nurse called I got off the phone with her before asking her about ICSI. It doesnt seem like I have a lot of follicles and I am extremely concerned. I cant even get Dr. Lu to call me. Before leaving FINO I told the nurse I really wanted to talk to Dr. Lu. She said, well one of the nurses will probably call you. I told her again that I would really like to speak with him about the # of follicles I have and whether going forward is really a good idea for me at this point. Do I really have enough to go to PGD. This is of course a very expensive thing I am doing and I am already out over $11k. Monday we would pay the balance for everything which is another $7900. So of course I think I have reason to be concerned that this will be a waste of money. That I should save what I have left and move forward with another cycle.

Well Dr. Lu did not call me even after I made it pretty clear I would prefer to speak to him. The nurses dont know the answers to my questions about the numbers.

The nurse called me and I forgot to ask about ICSI and whether we should do that. I had wanted her to ask Dr. Lu for me. So I called back and it took awhile to get someone on the phone. She was very short with me and then we were disconnected in the middle of our conversation. She has not called me back. I guess she figured if I wanted to talk I'd call back again? I'm so frustrated and angry. I cant get Dr. Lu to call me. I have only spoken to him ONCE since Oct 16. My friends who have cycled with him or other doctors at FINO said they had way more contact then I am having. Those friends are Trish, Kim & Brandi. But they were all just trying to have a baby, they were not doing this to have a certain gender baby. So perhaps some of the staff do not agree with why I am doing this.

I called and left a message for the nurse to call me back. I have another question about the HCG shot I am supposed to take but wasnt able to ask because the call got dropped.

I have a bad feeling about this. My gut is saying to cancel this cycle. My gut is telling me that Dr. Lu might be a great RE but he isn't as skilled with doing PGD for gender and I should cycle somewhere else. My gut is saying that if I go Monday I am going to waste another $7900. I dont feel good about this cycle at all and its not because I am being negative or trying to prepare myself for bad news. My results from stimming have not been very good, so there isnt really any positive to give me hope besides the nurse that had called saying that he thinks I have plenty of follicles to proceed. I will be LUCKY if I get 5. Maybe if Dr. Lu called me and explained why he thinks there are enough to go forward or talked to me himself to just explain whats going on I would not feel this way. But I cant even get my doctor on the phone.