Dr. Lu Calls

Well Dr. Lu called me which was nice. After I called back and left a message for the nurse to return my call Dr. Lu actually called. He seemed a little confused, he thought I left the message for him but explained I had gotten disconnected from the nurse before I was done speaking with her.

I asked him how early I can pre mix the HCG shot or if I need to give it to myself immediately. I have a wedding tonight and forsee myself hopefully arriving to the Riverview Room at about 815. Or at least that is what Jennifer said she is planning on. She is not having a full mass. The nurse told me to take the shot at 830 which if I arrive at 815, 830 would put me starting the big formals for the bridal party and family pictures. Anyway, I needed to know if I could premix the shot, like while driving so that if I HAD to take it right at 830 I could just pull it out and stick myself really quickly. Or if once the medication is mixed do I need to take it right away. So he said it can be mixed and sit for several hours so that was good to know. He also said there is a 30 min window before and after the time they gave. So thats good to know as well. I am going to try to take it as close to 830 as possible.

Since he had me on the phone he explained that if he thought I was going to need another cycle he would cancel this one now. But he does forsee being able to put 2 embryos back but does not forsee me being able to freeze any. Which he said would usually be the next step if I dont get pregnant from this cycle. Well duh, I know that and that is why I have believed this protocol is all wrong for me. I knew I should have talked to him more after I had questioned Mary about the protocol. She had even said "Oh well because you are doing PGD you dont want to have too many" Um what? Isnt it because I am doing PGD that I should want too many? And what is too many? I told her to double check with Dr. Lu.

I really feel right then and there I should have asked to speak with him to voice my concerns and tell him I absolutely wanted "too many" so that I would have some to freeze.

I still dont have a good feeling about things.

Dr. Lu admitted 3 days ago he was thinking that my cycle might have to be canceled because of how I was responding. But he now things I will have at least 2 to put back and then I have the same 50% chance rate of pregnany. Wouldnt it be a miracle?

Michael, wherever you are, please help Beebe and I achieve having a daughter. I know you are there and that you must be watching us. Please help push whatever soul that is to become our daughter into this embryo and make her stick.